Impulse | Steps on the Path, part 3

Note: this page is part of the Cliffjump! Manifesto. If you’ve arrived from an external link, and haven’t read the previous parts of the book, you might want to start at the beginning



Once you are Clear, and have arrived at that state of non-attached Listening, what’s next? How do you know when to take an idea and run with it? You act on Impulse. And that is basically an act of trust.

I have a theory that trust, and more precisely self-trust, is perhaps the single most important component of creativity. You can have all the creative ideas you want, and all the technical wherewithal in the world to realize those ideas, but if you don’t trust yourself and your subconscious judgment about which ideas to follow through on, you’ll get nowhere. You’ll just spin your wheels second-guessing every possibility your creative brain provides you with, until it gets frustrated and stops trying.

Let’s get physical…

Creativity is only partially a conscious, mental process. In many ways most of what’s valuable about it, and certainly most of what’s interesting to me, is physical and emotional, beyond conscious choice. (In fact, this is substantially true of our mental processes across the board, from the way we perceive the world around us to the choices we make. A number of books have been published recently detailing research into this notion.)

Creative choices are often unexpected, sometimes illogical; they are frequently not what you would choose to do after carefully weighing all possible options, pros and cons…

More often than not, in my experience, creativity is spontaneously choosing the unexpected, going with the hidden third option when only two were presented… A creative impulse or instinct is not rehearsed or prepared. It is sudden, fresh and new.

OK, so how do we ‘know’ if a new idea is a valid creative choice or just a random and possibly not-very-good notion? Simple answer: we don’t. We have to take chances. We have to learn to trust the impulse – the first idea that jumps up and says, “pick me!”. We do get better over time at learning the subtle cues that indicate that it’s time to make the jump, take the leap of faith. But mostly it’s about trusting the impulse, the intuition that this is the moment.

The first cut is the deepest…

As a musician I’ve spent a fair bit of time in the recording studio, and I’ve done some sound-engineering work in that context as well. There is a phenomenon which I’ve observed and discussed with countless colleagues over the years. Here’s the gist of it: the first take is always the best.

When recording. whichever side of the glass you’re on, you really hope that the first take is usable on a technical level, that the tape was rolling and there are not too many obvious mistakes; because more ‘polished’ later takes with less ‘mistakes’ are almost invariably boring, lifeless in comparison. They lack the energy and intensity of a focused, present, committed ‘first take’. The first one is almost always the best, clearest, most honest performance, even if it’s ‘flawed’.

Of course, this tends to favour players with solid, reliable technique and the musicianship to realize those great ideas immediately. The more at home you are on the instrument (substitute your creative medium here), the more relaxed and confident you’ll be and the greater the chances that the first take will be complete and usable. That’s one of the things that makes experienced, relaxed players valuable in the studio. (That’s the positive side of control; the negative, as we’ve seen, is a tendency towards rote playing, falling too easily into established habits or patterns of muscle memory; finding the sweet spot between these two is what makes a really ‘special’ player…)

Regardless, it is the inherent energy of a fresh idea, before the editing and evaluating brain gets involved and takes over, that makes this possible. Learning to recognize and trust the Impulse, the instinct that tells you when it is time to act, is the opposite of the second-guessing ‘monkey-mind’ / ‘lizard brain’ voice that tells you to wait, play it safe, don’t take the risk.

And of course, you get better at it with time and practice. However, you don’t get better by thinking about it as much as by doing it; this is not really an intellectual process. It has more to do with the body’s intelligence. It’s more about feeling than knowledge, more about the energy of the moment, the decision to stop hesitating and take the plunge, the leap of faith. In a word, it’s about fearlessness

What’s your take? Does this make sense to you? Have you had creative experiences that confirm or contradict these musings? Please leave a comment in the Discussion section below, and start or join the conversation!

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